Day 8-9

Day 8

I felt so lightheaded in the morning so I had to eat something. I ate an apple with a little bit of dip. Im in love with the american dip. It's so good and it tastes good with everything!

I had a lot of errands to run so I didn't have time to think about food or eating until late afternoon. I knew I had to eat something before practice or otherwise I might have fainted. So I made carrot, tomato, potato soup. It was good and very low calorie.

At night I ate some red pepper with the beloved dip and a couple of cherries.

I biked for like 4-5 miles and had cheerleading for 2,5 hours. I also did 200 sit ups and 50 push ups. I might have to step it up a little cuz Im seeing NO results.

Day 9

This definitely isn't going as planned. I ate carrots, cherry tomatoes and cucumber slices for breakfast. Couple days ago I wasn't even eating breakfast!!! This is alarming!

I biked for about 30 mins or so and after I came home from a friends house I was actually feeling hungry! And I've been watching these Asian food programs and I was craving noodles! So I had to make myself a bowl of stir fried noodles with veggies and egg. But I ate two bowls instead of one! I don't care if it was a kid sized bowl, I still ate 2 bowls! Disgusting! How could I have done this to myself? As I look in the mirror all I see is fat fat and fat. My stomach has never looked bigger and all the progress I made was for nothing? This seriously sucks. And just to top it off, I have been craving cup cakes, chocolate, chocolate cake and cake batter for the entire day! This drives me nuts! Thank God I don't have any of the ingredients so I can't bake. That would just ruin it for good.

I don't know what I'm going to do on Monday when we will celebrate my sister's birthday and there will be cake and cookies and brownies and candy and everything sweet and good and tasty. I know if I take one bite of anything sweet or tasty, my heart will melt away and I won't be able stop. I could probably eat an entire chocolate cake by myself. Maybe this crash diet isn't working. But there's no other way to achieve that level of thinness that I desire. I wish someone would grab me by the shoulders, shake me and tell me that it doesn't matter how you look because you are perfect as you are. But nobody knows the pain I feel.

Why can't I look like this?

Day 7

I have never felt so sick than what I was feeling when I woke up this morning. I was tired, my head hurt and my muscles hurt and I felt really lightheaded. I was almost ready to give up my crash diet. I ate a couple of baby carrots with a little dip before getting up.

But as the day went on, I felt normal again. For lunch I ate vegetables with home made sweet&sour sauce. It was real good. At night I ate 7 oz fresh cherries. I also drank 2 glasses of milk.

I biked for about 5 miles today and did 300 sit ups. We didn't have practice.

I was supposed to weigh myself today but I don't own a scale so I forgot to do that at a friends house. But instead I decided to take new measurements. I know I've gotten a little skinnier cuz a dress that I used 10 days ago was then very tight and I almost couldn't fit in it but today it was a little loose and all.

So my new measurements are: hips 37, waist 25.6, thighs 20.1, and stomach at belly button 33.1.

So thighs are .4 smaller and waist .8 smaller. Everything else is the same.

I guess Im supposed to be happy with the results. I mean, it's only been a week. Im really happy with the waist but my thighs really disappoint me. But I will keep on going with this exercise regime and eating and we'll see how long I can keep it up.

Day 6

Today was full of disappointments but also some good things.

I started out by doing 200 sit ups.

Then the break down came. I went to a get together at my friends house and ate 2 chips, 3 crackers, 6 nachos, 3 handfuls of popcorn, 15 pieces of little chocolate candies and some salsa with the nachos. That is TOO MANY CALORIES! I feel so bad.

Because of binging like that I went running afterwards. I ran 3.5 miles. Then I did 50 push ups and 200 sit ups.

I ate 2 egg whites and drank 2 glasses of milk so that my muscles could use the protein.

So todays exercise comes to the total of 400 sit ups, 50 push ups, jogging for 3.5 miles and biking for 2 miles.

Tomorrow I will weigh myself. These pictures I took today. As you can clearly see, my thighs look massive and so disgusting!

Day 4-5

Day 4. I ate a boiled egg for breakfast because I did 400 sit ups and the muscles needed some protein. My mom made me eat an ice cream. It wasn't a big one, more almost like a popsicle. Around 6pm I ate another boiled egg without the yolk and carrots, peppers and cucumbers with low fat dip. I also had a diet soda around 2am when I was out with my friends. I didn't drink any alcohol. I've decided to not drink any for a while.

I biked 5 miles and did those 400 sit ups mentioned earlier. That's all the exercising I did because I didn't have practice.

Day 5. I only ate dinner which was cheese covered pike and potatoes. I also ate a slice of bread, fresh salad and couple of boiled asparagus. For desert I had a piece of home made swiss roll. I ate dinner with my parents so that is the reason I ate so much! But I didn't eat breakfast, lunch or any snacks so it kinda balances it out.

I did 200 sit ups in the morning. I couldn't go biking or running because it's been raining all day and I don't feel like getting wet when I already have a sore throat.

This morning I was surfing on the net and found an interesting blog. A girl has been writing it for 2 years and she suffers from anorexia. You can clearly see that she seriously doesn't know when she crossed the line. Some of her symptoms include using laxatives and throwing up after stuffing herself so she might be partly bulimic as well.

Reading her blog has made me think about my dieting as well. I don't want to be anorexic, not even that skinny. I just wanna be a healthy size 2-4 and fit. But to be honest, skinnier girls look better than normal weight or chunky girls. I can't help it. What do you think?

Day 2-3

Good news, I wasn't hungry after practice on day 1 so I didn't eat anything at night. I also biked like for 30 mins.

Day 2 didn't go as well as planned. My dad had chocolate cake which I really couldn't resist. I also I ate 2 pieces of bread with butter and turkey for breakfast. I also ate spaghetti with tomato meat sauce twice because I had a friend over and I couldn't admit I was trying to lose weight. But I also went out with my friends and drank like a million calories! For example vodka and juice and shots and all. But I was able to throw up most of them when I got home.

All exercise that I did was biking for like 2 miles. (sad, I know!) Dancing while drunk doesn't count as exercising but it burned at least some of the calories.

Day 3 aka today. I ate a piece of bread with ham but was so hungover I couldn't keep it down for more than an hour. Only meal I've eaten today was chicken pasta with fresh tomatoes and milk. I wasn't too hungry but again I had company so I had to eat.

Today I biked about a mile and did cheerleading for 2 hours. I also did 300 sit ups because I forgot to do them yesterday.

I measured my waist, hips and thighs. Waist is 26.4 inches, hips 37 and thighs 20.5. I also measured my belly just under my belly button and it is 33.1. I hope to lose at least an inch in all of them.

New pictures. There's no visible change in 3 days. Actually, I think I look even fatter. I'm so disgusted at the moment that I will go and do some push ups.

Day 1

Hi, my name is Annie. I live in Connecticut. I'm 19 years old and this blog is about me trying to get thin. I'm 5'9 and 147.4 pounds. I'm a cheerleader which means I have physically exhausting practices up to 6 times a week.

My main goal is to have a slim, skinny figure. At the moment I'm not considered fat by others but I'm not skinny either. I have fat thighs, a fat stomach and too much extra everywhere.

Here are pictures I took today. As you can see, I'm average, but there's so much extra. I hate my waist, my hips and my stomach, but my ties really make me nauseous.

Today I have eaten a half bag of baby carrots, two small servings of whole wheat pasta with tomato-meat sauce (home made). I also ate a piece of chocolate cake (I feel very guilty) and drank 3 glasses of milk.

If I feel really hungry after practice I will eat some salad. (cucumber, red peppers and tomatoes)

I will do 100 sit ups every morning right when I wake up. I also will also bike to practice and do everything we do there 100%. I will not add any extra exercising because I don't want to be muscular, I want to be skinny.

I will continue taking pictures every week and I will share my weight with you as well. All tips are welcomed and I hope to be skinny enough by the end of August.